thepetnanny

My friend Belinda informed me last night that she is having her birthday party at a local jazz club we’ve been dying to check out, and I’m very excited.  The only downside is, that it’s in two weeks and I am sooo far from my goal weight!  It would’nt normally be a big deal, but it’s a formal thing and I am not looking forward to my huge child-bearing hips poking out of a dress!

This is a typical example of how I let my weight/self-esteem hold me back from living my life.  I have a habit of saying “Oh, I’ll do that when I lose weight.” or, “That will be sooo much fun to try when I’m skinny again!”  I have not been out with girlfriends in over 6 months, and it is all because I am way too self-conscious to be seen with them.  My issues are keeping me from enjoying anything!  I wanted to join a book club at the library, but decided against it, beacuase God forbid I meet anyone while I’m 30 lbs overweight! 

 I was thinking about this really hard today, and have decided that I am not going to let my weight keep me from enjoying my life.  I am going to try 1 new thing a week, something that I want to do.  Whether it’s going into a store I”ve been too self conscious to go to, or join a book club.  I also realized that I may never again be the Hooters waitress I was 8 years ago when I met my fiance and I’m going to have to accept that.

So, my plan for the next two weeks is to kick my fitness routine up a notch.  And Even if I don’t see the number on the scale I want, I will still feel proud of my hard work and dedication.  I will be stronger, happier & healthier than I am right now.  After all, thats really what it’s about right?